I do start to get frustrated again with a girl (a woman rather). I don’t know if it is love, but I started to dream about her recently, I don’t know why either, but I know when it started. It started when I have stared on his profile picture. It bothers me and I didn’t expect this to happen, rather I should say I didn’t intended to make me feel this ache nor she rather intended too. But seeing her makes me feel complete and at the same time it hurts me a lot, hurt because I am bounded by an oath not make any relationship until I am independent. And another scenario, I cannot have a relationship with her either because she was an ex-girlfriend of one my friends and it is kind an awkward to confess to her, and another thing is I’m not sure if it is love.
To be honest, I’m captured by her beauty, not love, but I want to draw her face all over over again without second thoughts. I’m becoming more addicted to her. I have told some of my friends that is also a friend to her, I told them the situation and they do understand.
I don’t know if it is just me… but I’ve got a feeling that she had also awed by me. I have seen it on her glance. I do want to ignore it but It’s just getting me deep within my bones. I want to confess to her what I feel, but I lack courage and moment that both of us would be alone. I didn’t get the time either because it will be a great talk around the class. The weird, talented, skilled, and in some manner a well active guy falling in love with a well reserved girl with great beauty and smile. I don’t want that kind of ruckus around, I don’t want attention either, and as I have said, I’m not certain if it is really love I feel.